282- More progress!

[jupiterhalo]

Though, it's more of a personal/emotional nature, rather than a physical one. :D

I honestly feel like I was a shitty person during the 3+ years that I was in deep depression, and I'm surprised that my friends who went through that with me are still my friends. I think that the ones that are still with me know how deeply sorry I feel about it, and I think that'll haunt me for the rest of my life. It's something that I've been having to live with (and feel guilty over) ever since I got out of therapy back in September.

It's only now, after over six months of being out of therapy and facing up to my problems, that I realize that now is the time to fix things. I think that having certain people in my life during that difficult time would have helped me immensely, and I'm very sad that they're not a part of my life anymore. But now is the time to make amends, and reach out to them.

So, good job me! I started the ball rolling with two people that I've been missing very dearly. <3 I hope that this will turn out to be a positive thing. I think that this will continue the healing process and journey that I've been on for a long time. Even if the responses I get back aren't positive, at least I know that I can make peace with the fact that I tried to right some of the wrongs I've committed.

And on that note... time to go watch a little bit of Dawn of the Dead!

Comments

[sorcererhuntres.livejournal.com]

That's so great and inspirational, Maki! I wish the best for you and I hope it all works out <3

[hyper-amychao.livejournal.com]

I remember those times. They weren't happy. But I'm glad you're much better now :D

♥♥♥

[rydiafantasy.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you're feeling better about yourself. That's always a good thing! :D

Question--are you now, or going to be soon watching my Gilmore DVDs? I have a friend whom I've convinced to give it a chance, so if they're still sitting untouched in your apartment, can I has them back? :)