Into the unknown

I have nothing else to do until I go to work in about fifteen minutes, so I'll make a quick LJ post. I've been trying to wake up earlier than my usual time; the plan is that I'm going to try and walk/jog/whatever for an hour before work, since that's really the only time I can do it. I think that the exercise will be good for me; my boss works out before she comes to work and she's always chipper. xD

I've been so unmotivated about exercising, though. At least I haven't gained any weight back, and I went down a size in clothes. :D Still at 12 pounds lost, which is really great. I think I'd be more eager to do something, if I had an iPod or some other kind of music player that I can use while I do it. However, money's been really tight lately. I think I'm going to have a little bit left over when I get paid on the 5th... but that's going towards pre-reg for NDK, the rest of my stuff for Setsuka and hopefully Maria, and things I need like food and gas.

I'm also considering just canceling the cable that we have. :| I think that I can count how many times I've actually watched TV with my fingers and still have a few left over. I don't really believe that I should keep paying for something that I'm not using, and it'd be an extra $10 a month that I'd save. I guess that I should talk to [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] and see if she'd mind paying for it, since she watches TV the most out of the three of us. But, since her sister's here, I don't really want to talk to her about money stuff until her family leaves.

On a brighter note, school is almost done with! I've gotten straight B's so far, and I'm really proud of myself. Class technically ends on the 6th, but if we pass the final project on the 4th, we don't need to take the final exam. x3 And then I get a small break before school starts for me again on the 25th. It won't be as bad, since I decided to drop Astronomy. I'm only taking three classes, and one of them ends on October 8th.

Work has also been going better. I've gotten a little more used to working at the front again, even though we get some really weird calls. xD Bobbie's getting surgery on August 20th, though. So I'll be working the front desk full-time until she hopefully comes back on the 31st. That'll be interesting, needless to say.

I've been feeling really irrationally angry lately. Maybe it's because I don't get as much sleep as I need. But either way, every day I wind up feeling so angry all the time. xD I really hope that goes away soon...

Bawww. I guess that I had better get to work now.

NDK was really fun this year! :D There were a lot of good memories and hilarious stories from this con. xD

Memorable events:
-Bleach dinner (Salad face!).
-Cosplaying as Risa and getting asked countless times if I was a Sailor Scout. xD
-Cosplaying as Setsuka from Soul Calibur III and having a lot of people want my picture and everything.
-Eating pizza with everyone Saturday night.
-Playing Munchkin this morning before we left.
-Everyone in our group being fascinated by Risa's sword and playing with it left and right. xD
-Being the only Bleach character in a group of Naruto characters.
-Taking pictures of us dressed as the Vaizards; especially the one with Risa and Kensei. <3

My cosplays this year were Risa from Bleach, Setsuka from Soul Calibur III, and Nanao from Bleach. Risa was the one I wore all day Friday, and Nanao and Setsuka were split on Saturday.

I really think that getting three rooms was a good idea. Personally, I think that's one reason why I had a much better time this year. I can't handle a lot of people crowded around me like that, so it was nice to actually sleep in a room that had less than eight people in it, as well as having some quiet time by myself in our hotel room. This was also the first year that I didn't feel like the odd man out; I was more comfortable with everyone in our group and felt like I could really go and talk/hang out with/do whatever with them. So, I really hope that NDK 2009 is as fun~ x3 We also saw some really good zombies. I should have hugged one when I was Nanao, for my Nanao/Zombie OTP from last year. xD

Here is a list (subject to change, of course) of the cosplays that I'm planning on doing next year:

-Victorian Setsuka from Soul Calibur IV.
-Quistis from Final Fantasy VIII.
-Jill Valentine from Resident Evil.

Okay. I've finished unpacking for the most part, and I am starting to clean my room a bit. So I had better continue with that before I lose all of my willingness. xD

Ahem.

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xD I don't know why I'm upset. It's not like it's srs business or anything. Oh well.

Wow, it feels like I haven't written in this for a while, even though it's only been about a week or so. xD

Things have been incredibly busy, and they look to be even more so as the weeks go on! Tomorrow, my sister and Shaun graduate from high school. ^_^ *tear* A big moment; I'm happy for you guys!

I also joined a new RP~ xD Oni didn't make me apply for anything, so that made me happy. I HATE strongly dislike applying for characters in different RPs. So now I am Quatre, from "Gundam Wing." :D Which gives me a reason to rewatch the series, since I haven't seen it in such a long time.

Speaking of characters... I think I narrowed down who I want to go as for NDK. Ana and I were talking about that today, and I realized that I had NO IDEA who I was going as. xD But, I think the list is as follows:

~Kapitel Nagi
~Orihime
~Nakano Hiroshi

I'm looking forward to this year's NDK! :D Because I'll get to see the group, and I miss them. A lot. Which is why I've decided to try and go see everyone more often. xD The next Sunday I have off, I'm going to try and make it to Shadowrun... I just need someone to tell me where we meet now. Sometimes I see people at Billy's, sometimes not. But, yeah. I miss everyone, insanely!

...Which brings us to the reason why I'm making this post. Since I have a lot of time to think during work, my thoughts lately have turned to my life. Am I happy? Am I content? Is everything okay? And my answer to those questions are... yes. :D I am happy, and content, for the first time since I was in high school. I really feel like I've turned my way of thinking 360 degrees, back to the way it was when I was 18. Back then, I was happy. I was energetic, fun and a little rebellious. College was a definite wake-up call for me, among other things. But I feel like I'm finally able to let things go. People can kick me (although I would prefer if they didn't xD), but I'll still get back up again. I finally have my confidence back, and I'm definitely starting to realize what the important things are in life.

So, to those I love: thank you so much for loving me back, and giving me courage. It means more to me than ever; and gives me the strength to support and encourage others in return. To those I hurt: I'm sorry for everything that has happened. I know that nothing can change the past, but we can always make a brighter future.

Over this past year (at the very least), it seems like I've withdrawn from a lot of people, only turning to a certain few. Maybe it was fear, or anger, or a mixture of both. But now I feel like I'm finally ready to rejoin the world again, as myself. I have a date on Wednesday, my work buddies and I are getting closer, and I've been reconnecting with people that I initially thought were lost to me.

...So, in other words, I really don't want to be apart from my friends anymore. xD I know it was a very roundabout way of saying it, but my thoughts have run deep these past few weeks.

Life is good.