Into the unknown

It's been almost two months since my last post! How time flies...

Nothing much has been going on. Work and school have taken over my life, which is fine. I like being busy, and I'm doing really well at CSU so far. I have A's in all of my classes so far, so hopefully that continues!

I'm feeling a lot better, now that I've had my freak out. Wednesday night I treated myself to a movie, but then broke down when I got home and cried out some of the frustration and sadness I've been feeling over the past year. I feel more like myself now, and I've decided that I'm not going to use what has happened to me regarding my parents as a crutch anymore.

I think I'm going to try and take up a few more hobbies, if I have time. I told Michi that I want to start taking singing lessons again, which is true. I also want to look into doing some horseback riding again, or maybe I'll find something completely new! I want to start yoga and meditation again, as well. I don't know where I'm going to find the time to do this, but I will find a way! Maybe I will be able to make some new friends along the way.

I think I'm going to take up my entry title as one of my two personal mantras. I'm tired of being unhappy with myself, and I will start to remember that I can choose how I feel each day.

Anyway, Shannon found this 30 day meme relating to Resident Evil that she wants me to post. Hopefully it will encourage me to post more often, since I have been really bad about that during the past few years.

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I think my icon perfectly sums up my mood at the moment.

The Friends of the Library had their annual book sale this weekend. Today, from 4 to 6 p.m., they had the $5.00 bag sale. I dragged [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] there, since we were already hanging out. xD I got a ton of books, including a cookbook and some ~romance~ novels. Overall, I was quite pleased.

[Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] and I were there for more than one reason, however. We've decided to... read Twilight. I, for one, am curious to see what the big deal is about, and if they do actually suck as much as people say they do.

The book sale didn't have any copies, so we got two copies of the first book from the library. We've already made it through the first two chapters, and right now I want to punch Bella in the face. She reminds me so much of a Mary Sue: all of the boys love her, everyone wants to talk to her and be her friend, and she's way too stuck up about how smart she is. She is also too whiny, and the dialogue in these first two chapters is so bad. Hopefully we can make it through the first book. xD

Work has been busy; school has been "meh." I need to start thinking about applying to CSU, even though there are so many things I need to do at Front Range first.


On the dating front- I've gone out on at least four (I think) coffee dates since I started doing the LoveBug thing. That's four more dates than I've had in the past year and a half. Too bad I haven't liked any of the guys I've been matched with. No chemistry whatsoever, and some of them have been jerks. Hopefully someone will come along that I'll actually feel something with.

On the plus side, I've lost a little over 18 pounds since the beginning of September.

Today has been quite a good day, despite my sunburn getting to that really disgusting phase before blistering. xD

I had my six month cleaning/check-up at the dentist first thing this morning. Normally at these things I have to schedule at least two or three cavities to be filled, and have the hygienist yell at me for not flossing. But this time is probably the first time ever that I haven't had any cavities at all! I just have to floss, which I'm already aware of. That made me pretty happy.

My class was okay last night. It was also very boring, so I'm hoping that once we get into the actual weather stuff (instead of talking about things like density and pressure) it will be more interesting. I'm going to need to bring a snack or something to that class in order to stay awake. My teacher is also quite awkward, so we'll see how things pan out.

Nothing much has been going on, other than that. Just work, reading, catching up on Friends with [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] and stuff like that.

Wow, it's been a long time since I've updated. xD I'm thinking about getting a Facebook, simply because people seem to use that a lot more than LJ. And also so I can play games and waste my time that way. But we'll see if I do end up getting one or not.

Ummm, let's see! The 28th was the Lady Gaga concert at the Pepsi Center, which was in a word: awesome. I had a good time, my friends seemed like they had a good time, and it was great to just dance to some good pop music.

I started a diet on the 26th; I think it's going pretty well! It's one of those diets that make you eat five or six times a day, which is something I'm still struggling with. Normally I eat two meals a day. So I've pretty much cut out all of the snacks they tell you to eat, since I feel full pretty much all of the time. I've also forgotten to eat breakfast most of the days since I started, but hopefully I'll start to get into the habit of doing that. [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] has been awesome in helping me with the diet; she's been cooking dinner for me and helping me keep on track. [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] also hooked up the Wii Fit for me, so I'm going to try and get up early to use that for at least half an hour every morning.

Work has been one pain in the ass after another. There's so much drama going on at the office right now; it's been a challenge to muster up the energy to even face it every day. One of my coworkers is an idiot, but when everyone complains about her to our boss, we're suddenly "picking on her" and "ganging up on her." In my opinion, if a lot of people complain about this particular woman, shouldn't that show that something is obviously wrong with the way she works? My boss is sacrificing the office morale for the sake of one person, and it's pissing me off. I've decided I'm done with all of that stuff-- I'm going to go in, do my work, and go home; hopefully I'll be able to skirt a lot of the stuff that's going on.

Sheena is also having a party on the 7th, and I honestly don't want to go now after everything that's happened in the last week. But, I already agreed to go, and I'm hoping it won't be as bad as I think. We'll see how I feel on Saturday, though.

My sister is home from CU for about a week or so; we're going to go have lunch tomorrow. Hopefully things will be better between us now than they were on my birthday. xD We did manage to have a civilized conversation on Sunday, when I went over to my parent's home for breakfast before my dad and I took a bike ride.

School starts on the 23rd, which will be nice. I won't feel so lazy every day when I get home from work, as long as I have a class to look forward to. I'm only taking Meteorology and then I'll finally be done at Front Range, so I'm hoping that I'll do well.

Other than that, not much has been going on. Just replaying some old video games and getting through a few books in my stack.

Goodbye April and hello May. Thank god for that. April just sucked as a month, so I'm hoping May will be better. I don't think that staying up for almost 24 hours on Thursday really helped, either.

Since I just spent the last few hours going through my iTunes and updating it, here's a meme all about music. xD

Search these words in your iTunes and write down the first song of the list that comes up.

Happy: "So Happy I Could Die" by Lady Gaga.
Love: "I Want to Know What Love Is" by the Rock of Ages Broadway Cast.
Hate: "I Hate Myself For Loving You/Heat of the Moment" by the Rock of Ages Broadway Cast.
Light: "Moonlight Shadow" by DJ Mystik.
Dark: "Fearless (250 and Dark Stars)" by Falling Up.
Good: "Damn You Look Good and I'm Drunk" by Cobra Starship.
Bad: "Bad Company" by Bad Company.
Hello: "Hello" by Evanescence.
Bye: "Goodbye My Lover" by James Blunt.
Up: "Waking Up" By Julien-K.
Down: "The Final Countdown" by the Rock of Ages Broadway Cast.

I have a ton of music in my library; these songs are the first ones that showed up that I actually have checked.

Not a lot has been going on lately! Just school and work, for the most part. xD Oh, and trying to get ready for Wasabi, which is next week. Craaaazy. It'll be nice to get away from Fort Collins for a while, even though I'm not too excited about the convention itself. Since I never do anything related to the con anyway, it's just a chance for me to do what I feel like. I am looking forward to seeing the band play, though. That'll probably be the highlight of the weekend.

I'm trying not to sweat the small stuff. I think I've been letting too many small things bother me lately, and it's had an impact on my health, especially my sleep. I read something yesterday and it made me ridiculously happy. xD Kind of sad that the little things can do that, but... well, I think that I just need to take those feelings when I get them, since I don't get them too often.

Oh, yeah. I think it's sad that in order to get up at 6:45, I need to wake up at 5:00. Which is what I did this morning. Sob.

So, on to the fandom notes! xD

The CW has chosen to renew Supernatural for another season, which will be the last one. Of course, I'm happy that we fans get another season, as I'm not ready to part with the show yet. But, really... where can you go after this season ends? Especially if the writers aren't going to stretch the apocalypse out into season six? I've heard that they want to go back to the feel and style of season one. But, I personally think that would be kind of a letdown after the epic!storylines we've had for the last few seasons. Oh well. I'll watch the beginning of season six and decide from there.

Resident Evil. Oh man, I spend way too much money for this game franchise. xD First, I needed to buy a wireless adapter for my 360, since I couldn't connect the Ethernet cable to the modem/router. That cost $100.00 alone. Then I had to buy a gold membership for my 360 account, and 1000 points to download the new content that was released. So, that's another $21.00 right there. But it was so worth it. To me, the story of Resident Evil is the story of Chris and Jill, so I was happy to play as them again. More new content should be coming out soon, which will be awesome. And "Lost in Nightmares" had the Itchy Tasty file! xD A truncated version, yes, but... still. So awesome.

I think that's everything. Time to go take a shower and get ready for work.

Been a pretty busy couple of weeks! :D

School is in full swing by now. I need to go to the Vidiot sometime soon and pick out a few movies to watch for my class. One of the assignments my teacher gave us is to watch a movie set in the Middle Ages and do a "History or Hollywood" type assignment with it. I think I've also picked out a person to do my first biography on, which is due in less than two weeks. I've also found that eating something before class will help me not fall asleep. xD

Let's see... I started my second job cleaning on Friday. It's not very hard; there's just a lot to do and it's very tedious. However, it's an extra $175 a month that will go right into my savings. :D And I only have to do it once every two weeks. It should get easier as time goes on.

I hung out with [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] on Friday. That was really fun, as I needed to unwind after two and half hours of straight cleaning. We got dinner and watched Zombieland. I liked it a lot, and I'm happy that they're going to make a sequel to it. Then, on Saturday, I went to see a movie with [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com]. We saw When in Rome, which was very cute. And funny, too, without being really stupid. That unfortunately overlapped with Shaun's birthday party, but I don't think he's too upset about me not being there.

I've also finally beaten Resident Evil 5, which is kind of sad that it took me this long to beat it. Having my own 360 helped a lot with that, though. I'm in the process of replaying it, and can hopefully unlock a better alternate costume for Chris than his stupid Safari zebra outfit.

I headed to the library and a few stores today. Got a lot of books at the library, including the rest of the Tales of the Otori series and a few books on World War II, in addition to the books I got for my biography project. I also found a Jensen Ackles movie for $3.00 while I was out shopping. It sounds really lame, but... for three bucks, I couldn't resist.

Hmmm... yeah, I thought I had more to say, but I think that's it.

I definitely don't feel like I should be up this early on a Saturday. xD Well, it's not THAT early... but early for me. I use my weekends to sleep in, damn it!

However, I have too much to do today, and I don't know how I'll find the time to do all of it. On the agenda today, is :

-Packing
-Looking at a possible storage unit
-Taking Doodles to the vet
-Finishing up shopping (for the most part)
-Going to the Duke and watching Bob and his stupid band
-Maybe a trip to Goodwill to drop off all of the clothes and stuff we're getting rid of

Anyway, I saw The Princess and the Frog last night. Omfg it was so cute. xD I hate everything that Disney's done in the last few years, but I love their fairy tale movies. I think this and Enchanted have been the only two movies I've enjoyed in a long time. I think I'm in the minority, but I hate Pixar. :| As a result, I try to avoid all of their movies if I can. But yeah, I enjoyed it a lot last night. The theater was completely empty except for a few other girls and me. It sounds like [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] and I are going to see it sometime next week, as well.

I also checked to see if my grades for the semester had been posted yet. They were. All A's, baby! Well, except for the science class I withdrew from. xD I haven't had a 4.0 in forever. I'm still pretty psyched about that.

Ugh. Okay. Time to get dressed and start moving some of these boxes over to my parent's place, before I go meet that lady to look at the storage unit.

EDIT:

Oh yeah! Here's my letter to Santa, before I forget.

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In May I signed my organ donor card (28 points). Last Thursday I donated bone marrow to sorcererhuntres in a life-saving procedure (300 points). Last Wednesday I helped kazeoto across the street (6 points). Last Sunday I punched jamochalicious in the arm (-10 points). In September I gave ras_algethi a life-saving blood transfusion (50 points). Overall, I've been nice (374 points). For Christmas I deserve an XBox 360! Sincerely, jupiterhalo

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Man. I want a 360 for Christmas. xD

That class is over and done with as of tonight! :D It was quite an interesting class, overall. But the almost 3 hour period was brutal at times.

So, that down, and Art History to go. That, however, should be done with tomorrow.

According to weather.com, it's 2 degrees out but it feels like -13. I can believe it. :|

I haven't really updated in a long time. D: So, in case anyone's interested... here you go!

My birthday's come and gone, and it was mostly fun. I had a dinner with my friends on the 6th, since I was going to be in Boulder on my actual birthday. Everyone seemed to have a good time. :D Gerardo, Nic, Shannon, Kira, Jackie and myself ended up staying until Old C's closed because we were having fun talking to each other.

I went to see Regina Spektor with my sister on my birthday, and that was mostly fun. We did get into a fight early on in the night, however, and that made everything after that kind of awkward. It was over the stupidest thing, too, but... oh well.

School-wise. I ended up dropping Astronomy, since I couldn't learn anything from my online class. Which means I'm not graduating this semester. Instead, I'm going to take Meteorology and graduate in the spring (hopefully). Now we're on Thanksgiving break, which will be incredibly welcome.

I got Resident Evil: The Darkside Chronicles on Wednesday, but couldn't start playing it until Thursday night. I'm really happy that they were able to get back a lot of the actors to play their characters again, especially Leon's and Claire's. I mean, Alyson is the only one to have played Claire in English, so it would have been awkward to hear anyone else. I beat it last night, so now I'm going through and trying to find all of the files I missed the first time around.

Supernatural is going to kill me. :| No new episodes until January 21st? Augh! This last one ended so memorably, too. I don't know what I'm going to do if the CW does end up renewing it for a sixth season. Where can they possibly go from what's been going on in season five?

Lady Gaga's "Bad Romance." I can't stop listening to it. :|

Okay, I think that's everything. And have a meme, courtesy of [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com]! :D

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