Into the unknown

Bah. I feel lame updating my LJ in a span of two days. xD; It's not like I really do anything. I pretty much just work and go home or go to school. I don't really hang out with my friends or anything like that; although, Joe seems to be determined to change that. I was supposed to go to Brush to see my family for Easter (even though I don't celebrate it), but I managed to get out of it since we're all going to the zoo on Sunday. I'm looking forward to it, even if it doesn't seem like it. xD I guess that I'm just lame and don't say or express what I'm really thinking... although I wish we were going to the museum instead. I hope I have fun. I'm seriously going to cry if I don't.

So, yeah, my relationship with Larry seems to have fizzled out. xD The last time we met up was so awkward; it was basically him asking me one question and staring at me blankly for the rest of the time. I ended up having to ask him questions just to get him to actually talk to me. At least Joe was on my side about it. xD: According to him, I should say "fuck it" and go find someone else. "You deserve much better, if he's going to be an asshole about it." It made me happy that he was defending me; I thought it would have been the other way around, seeing as how he's known Larry longer.

So, I guess I'm going to be staying the whole weekend at NDK after all. @_@ I'm giving it one more shot; hopefully third time is the charm and I'll have a lot more fun this year than I have the previous two years. It's been kind of awkward, as I was totally miserable these past two years. I guess that as a last resort, I can always bring my laptop and internet thingy in case the same thing happens this year. There are times at NDK I wish that I drove myself so I could just go home when I wanted to, but... xD Well, we'll just see how things go.

So, here's a tenative list of cosplays I'm going to try and do for NDK:

-Risa (definitely the one I'm looking forward to; Angie wants to see pics xD)
-Hachi
-Female Aya Fujimiya
-Kabuto (a possibility; it'd be nice to be included with the other Naruto cosplays, but I'm still undecided)
-Possibly Setsuka and Nanao, if needed (and if I can get a hold of the proper accessories again).

Dropping Matsumoto, because there's no point if I don't have a Gin. And I was briefly considering doing Hiro again, but... no. I sucked as him, so I really don't want to have to go through that torture again. Other than that, I really can't think of any cosplays that I can do.

Been feeling kind of bleh, to be honest. The only good thing about the past few days is that Angie's been cheering me up with Kensei/Risa love. They make me go "x333".

Okay, here's my rant.

People. I have a cell phone for a reason. A lot of people know my cell number (more than I'd like to). If you want to get in touch with me to do something, that's what you use. Don't be lame and go through another individual to see if I want to do something. In fact, it's kind of an insult if someone goes that route. It's telling me that even though you want to hang out with me and do something with me, you can't actually make the effort to ask me yourself. If only two people are going to actually contact me, then why exactly am I spending almost $51 of my own money every month to pay for something that no one is ever going to use? If that's the case, I could be spending it on things like food or gas. Other things that I have to pay for myself. It's very frustrating to think about, especially since I tend to go out of my way to be more accessible for things like this.

So, please, the next time someone wants to do something with me, ask me directly. It's not like I'm never out of contact for very long.

I think I'd be a little better about this if I wasn't feeling so sick, but... it is also something that has been bothering me for a long time. Especially if I have to break previous plans to do something that no one told me about until just a few hours before it (not directly, of course). I'm getting sick of it.

Sheesh. I didn't realize I was that much of an unbearable asshole to talk to.

The death of a family member is always hard. Even when you've been expecting it for quite a long time.

You were the best. My friend in time of need, my protector, the one person I could always go to for comfort. I always could come to you and cry on your shoulder, and feel the love you had for me. I'm sorry for everything that happened between us... I didn't pay you enough attention when I got older, never bothered to just sit with you like I had always done. I'm sorry I wasn't able to help you in your time of need, like you had always done for me. I'm sorry I wasn't able to say goodbye to you, and tell you that I loved you.

I'm sorry for a lot of things, but my love for you will never change. I don't think I'll ever be able to own another dog again, because you were the epitome. You were the greatest, sweetest, most caring dog and I'll never forget you. I loved you right until the end, and I'll love you still. Be at peace, okay? Thank you for everything.

R.I.P Ariel Dog Frausel, aged 16 years.

>_>!!!!!!!!

Is it wrong for me to be so mad about this? Evem after eight hours?

Just... don't talk to me. Please. Just leave me the fuck alone.

I think I'm going to be sick.