Into the unknown

NDK was really fun this year! :D There were a lot of good memories and hilarious stories from this con. xD

Memorable events:
-Bleach dinner (Salad face!).
-Cosplaying as Risa and getting asked countless times if I was a Sailor Scout. xD
-Cosplaying as Setsuka from Soul Calibur III and having a lot of people want my picture and everything.
-Eating pizza with everyone Saturday night.
-Playing Munchkin this morning before we left.
-Everyone in our group being fascinated by Risa's sword and playing with it left and right. xD
-Being the only Bleach character in a group of Naruto characters.
-Taking pictures of us dressed as the Vaizards; especially the one with Risa and Kensei. <3

My cosplays this year were Risa from Bleach, Setsuka from Soul Calibur III, and Nanao from Bleach. Risa was the one I wore all day Friday, and Nanao and Setsuka were split on Saturday.

I really think that getting three rooms was a good idea. Personally, I think that's one reason why I had a much better time this year. I can't handle a lot of people crowded around me like that, so it was nice to actually sleep in a room that had less than eight people in it, as well as having some quiet time by myself in our hotel room. This was also the first year that I didn't feel like the odd man out; I was more comfortable with everyone in our group and felt like I could really go and talk/hang out with/do whatever with them. So, I really hope that NDK 2009 is as fun~ x3 We also saw some really good zombies. I should have hugged one when I was Nanao, for my Nanao/Zombie OTP from last year. xD

Here is a list (subject to change, of course) of the cosplays that I'm planning on doing next year:

-Victorian Setsuka from Soul Calibur IV.
-Quistis from Final Fantasy VIII.
-Jill Valentine from Resident Evil.

Okay. I've finished unpacking for the most part, and I am starting to clean my room a bit. So I had better continue with that before I lose all of my willingness. xD

Bah. I feel lame updating my LJ in a span of two days. xD; It's not like I really do anything. I pretty much just work and go home or go to school. I don't really hang out with my friends or anything like that; although, Joe seems to be determined to change that. I was supposed to go to Brush to see my family for Easter (even though I don't celebrate it), but I managed to get out of it since we're all going to the zoo on Sunday. I'm looking forward to it, even if it doesn't seem like it. xD I guess that I'm just lame and don't say or express what I'm really thinking... although I wish we were going to the museum instead. I hope I have fun. I'm seriously going to cry if I don't.

So, yeah, my relationship with Larry seems to have fizzled out. xD The last time we met up was so awkward; it was basically him asking me one question and staring at me blankly for the rest of the time. I ended up having to ask him questions just to get him to actually talk to me. At least Joe was on my side about it. xD: According to him, I should say "fuck it" and go find someone else. "You deserve much better, if he's going to be an asshole about it." It made me happy that he was defending me; I thought it would have been the other way around, seeing as how he's known Larry longer.

So, I guess I'm going to be staying the whole weekend at NDK after all. @_@ I'm giving it one more shot; hopefully third time is the charm and I'll have a lot more fun this year than I have the previous two years. It's been kind of awkward, as I was totally miserable these past two years. I guess that as a last resort, I can always bring my laptop and internet thingy in case the same thing happens this year. There are times at NDK I wish that I drove myself so I could just go home when I wanted to, but... xD Well, we'll just see how things go.

So, here's a tenative list of cosplays I'm going to try and do for NDK:

-Risa (definitely the one I'm looking forward to; Angie wants to see pics xD)
-Hachi
-Female Aya Fujimiya
-Kabuto (a possibility; it'd be nice to be included with the other Naruto cosplays, but I'm still undecided)
-Possibly Setsuka and Nanao, if needed (and if I can get a hold of the proper accessories again).

Dropping Matsumoto, because there's no point if I don't have a Gin. And I was briefly considering doing Hiro again, but... no. I sucked as him, so I really don't want to have to go through that torture again. Other than that, I really can't think of any cosplays that I can do.

Been feeling kind of bleh, to be honest. The only good thing about the past few days is that Angie's been cheering me up with Kensei/Risa love. They make me go "x333".

This is going to be very short, seeing as how I have to go to my World Music class in a little while, but...

I survived NDK! xD I wasn't sure I was going to, but I did. Very happy to be home, as fun as it is.

...And there's a dog sitting behind me in the computer lab. o_o

Wow, it feels like I haven't written in this for a while, even though it's only been about a week or so. xD

Things have been incredibly busy, and they look to be even more so as the weeks go on! Tomorrow, my sister and Shaun graduate from high school. ^_^ *tear* A big moment; I'm happy for you guys!

I also joined a new RP~ xD Oni didn't make me apply for anything, so that made me happy. I HATE strongly dislike applying for characters in different RPs. So now I am Quatre, from "Gundam Wing." :D Which gives me a reason to rewatch the series, since I haven't seen it in such a long time.

Speaking of characters... I think I narrowed down who I want to go as for NDK. Ana and I were talking about that today, and I realized that I had NO IDEA who I was going as. xD But, I think the list is as follows:

~Kapitel Nagi
~Orihime
~Nakano Hiroshi

I'm looking forward to this year's NDK! :D Because I'll get to see the group, and I miss them. A lot. Which is why I've decided to try and go see everyone more often. xD The next Sunday I have off, I'm going to try and make it to Shadowrun... I just need someone to tell me where we meet now. Sometimes I see people at Billy's, sometimes not. But, yeah. I miss everyone, insanely!

...Which brings us to the reason why I'm making this post. Since I have a lot of time to think during work, my thoughts lately have turned to my life. Am I happy? Am I content? Is everything okay? And my answer to those questions are... yes. :D I am happy, and content, for the first time since I was in high school. I really feel like I've turned my way of thinking 360 degrees, back to the way it was when I was 18. Back then, I was happy. I was energetic, fun and a little rebellious. College was a definite wake-up call for me, among other things. But I feel like I'm finally able to let things go. People can kick me (although I would prefer if they didn't xD), but I'll still get back up again. I finally have my confidence back, and I'm definitely starting to realize what the important things are in life.

So, to those I love: thank you so much for loving me back, and giving me courage. It means more to me than ever; and gives me the strength to support and encourage others in return. To those I hurt: I'm sorry for everything that has happened. I know that nothing can change the past, but we can always make a brighter future.

Over this past year (at the very least), it seems like I've withdrawn from a lot of people, only turning to a certain few. Maybe it was fear, or anger, or a mixture of both. But now I feel like I'm finally ready to rejoin the world again, as myself. I have a date on Wednesday, my work buddies and I are getting closer, and I've been reconnecting with people that I initially thought were lost to me.

...So, in other words, I really don't want to be apart from my friends anymore. xD I know it was a very roundabout way of saying it, but my thoughts have run deep these past few weeks.

Life is good.