Wow, it feels like I haven't written in this for a while, even though it's only been about a week or so. xD
Things have been incredibly busy, and they look to be even more so as the weeks go on! Tomorrow, my sister and Shaun graduate from high school. ^_^ *tear* A big moment; I'm happy for you guys!
I also joined a new RP~ xD Oni didn't make me apply for anything, so that made me happy. I
HATE strongly dislike applying for characters in different RPs. So now I am Quatre, from "Gundam Wing." :D Which gives me a reason to rewatch the series, since I haven't seen it in such a long time.
Speaking of characters... I think I narrowed down who I want to go as for NDK. Ana and I were talking about that today, and I realized that I had NO IDEA who I was going as. xD But, I think the list is as follows:
I'm looking forward to this year's NDK! :D Because I'll get to see the group, and I miss them. A lot. Which is why I've decided to try and go see everyone more often. xD The next Sunday I have off, I'm going to try and make it to Shadowrun... I just need someone to tell me where we meet now. Sometimes I see people at Billy's, sometimes not. But, yeah. I miss everyone, insanely!
...Which brings us to the reason why I'm making this post. Since I have a lot of time to think during work, my thoughts lately have turned to my life. Am I happy? Am I content? Is everything okay? And my answer to those questions are... yes. :D I am happy, and content, for the first time since I was in high school. I really feel like I've turned my way of thinking 360 degrees, back to the way it was when I was 18. Back then, I was happy. I was energetic, fun and a little rebellious. College was a definite wake-up call for me, among other things. But I feel like I'm finally able to let things go. People can kick me (although I would prefer if they didn't xD), but I'll still get back up again. I finally have my confidence back, and I'm definitely starting to realize what the important things are in life.
So, to those I love: thank you so much for loving me back, and giving me courage. It means more to me than ever; and gives me the strength to support and encourage others in return. To those I hurt: I'm sorry for everything that has happened. I know that nothing can change the past, but we can always make a brighter future.
Over this past year (at the very least), it seems like I've withdrawn from a lot of people, only turning to a certain few. Maybe it was fear, or anger, or a mixture of both. But now I feel like I'm finally ready to rejoin the world again, as myself. I have a date on Wednesday, my work buddies and I are getting closer, and I've been reconnecting with people that I initially thought were lost to me.
...So, in other words, I really don't want to be apart from my friends anymore. xD I know it was a very roundabout way of saying it, but my thoughts have run deep these past few weeks.
Life is good.