( Huzzah for geeking out before bed! )
On to this 30 day thing, so I can go to bed at 10:30 like the old woman I am...
( I am doing pretty good so far... )
( Day two is under here... )
Nothing much has been going on. Work and school have taken over my life, which is fine. I like being busy, and I'm doing really well at CSU so far. I have A's in all of my classes so far, so hopefully that continues!
I'm feeling a lot better, now that I've had my freak out. Wednesday night I treated myself to a movie, but then broke down when I got home and cried out some of the frustration and sadness I've been feeling over the past year. I feel more like myself now, and I've decided that I'm not going to use what has happened to me regarding my parents as a crutch anymore.
I think I'm going to try and take up a few more hobbies, if I have time. I told Michi that I want to start taking singing lessons again, which is true. I also want to look into doing some horseback riding again, or maybe I'll find something completely new! I want to start yoga and meditation again, as well. I don't know where I'm going to find the time to do this, but I will find a way! Maybe I will be able to make some new friends along the way.
I think I'm going to take up my entry title as one of my two personal mantras. I'm tired of being unhappy with myself, and I will start to remember that I can choose how I feel each day.
Anyway, Shannon found this 30 day meme relating to Resident Evil that she wants me to post. Hopefully it will encourage me to post more often, since I have been really bad about that during the past few years.
( 30 day meme! )
It's hard to believe that January's almost gone. This month has gone by way too quickly. Work has been kind of weird-- some days, it's awesome; other days, it's just shit. Hopefully I have more awesome days in the future.
I've been talking a lot more with my sister, so that's been nice.
I'm also having a really good time with this guy Lovebug set me up with. He's a little younger than me, but he's really sweet and easy to get along with. We're having our third date(?) on Wednesday hopefully, so... yeah. Not bad for having just met him on the 10th.
I've been keeping up with my diet and fitness stuff religiously over the past few weeks, and it's paid off. I can fit into a smaller size! :D I'm at 16W right now, but I can wear 14W stuff. The 14W is the smallest plus size, so after that... I'll be in normal sizes. I don't think I've been in a normal size since my sophomore/junior year of high school. I'm probably going to cry when the day comes that I'm able to fit into a regular 18 or 16.
Taking the semester off has been pretty nice. I've been keeping track of all of the movies I've watched and the books I've read. So far, for January I have read 10 books and watched 6 movies. Not too shabby. In addition, Ana and I have been marathoning Ronin Warriors, which has been amazing.
Short post for tonight, but I'm trying to finish up laundry before I head to bed. :D All in all, January's been a pretty decent month.
Man, everyone is answering this. xD I guess I should too.
Where to begin. I can't even begin to remember what my favorite books were as a child; I had so many. Like some of my other friends, I was huge into Baby Sitters Club and the spinoff with Karen. I loved Nancy Drew; I'm still sad that I got rid of my books from this series. I was also big into horses, so any book about a horse I would read. I also really enjoyed the Dear America series, as well as the American Girl series. Some of the actual titles I can remember enjoying are The True Confessions of Charlotte Doyle by Avi, and High Trail to Danger by Joan Lowery Nixon.
As a child, I was an avid reader. I still am, so I'm glad that habit isn't gone.
It felt really nice dressing up and feeling all feminine, since I never really get any opportunities to do that. Work is always dressy casual, so I end up wearing black pants and a nice shirt most days. But anyway, last night Anna and Andie ended up curling my hair, and Ana was kind enough to do my makeup for me (apparently I pull off the pinup eye look quite well). Shannon and I carpooled to Mt. Fuji's, which is where we had dinner. The service was fantastic compared to what we had at Suh's last year. I ended up sitting at Jake's end of the table again, which was funny. We didn't get out of the restaurant until close to 10:00, though.
After dinner it was on to the party. I spent most of it talking with Ana, Jake and Nic, since they were some of the only people I knew there. I felt kind of sad following them around like a lost puppy, but they didn't seem to mind it.
And of course, we celebrated the New Year with kisses. I got kissed three or four times, which I'm amazed by. This is the first time I've ever been kissed on New Year's, so that made me incredibly happy. I know that it's not really a big deal, but I'm still excited about it. I guess that I'm making up for lost time. The girl that I carpooled with wanted to leave right after midnight, so I had to take her home. That was a shame, since I did actually want to stay at the party and hang out, talk and dance. Oh well; next year will be my time, hopefully.
I did almost cry last night when I got home, due to the fact that this is the first New Year without my mother. But, I was able to get through it after a little bit.
I hope that everyone who did celebrate last night got home safe and sound.
I'm going to leave 2010 almost 30 pounds lighter than I started it, but with a much heavier heart. There were a lot of good times this year; so many that I probably won't be able to remember them all. I really enjoyed getting to know some of my friends a lot better (Kira, Anna, Jake <3), the Lady GaGa concert, finally finishing up my Associate's Degree (even though I won't technically graduate until the spring), work going well... and getting more responsibilities to take care of, losing almost 30 pounds since September, my sister and I spending more time together... and so many more good things.
I want to say a big thank you to the people who have supported me this year, especially over the past month. Kira, Ana, Shannon, and Anna, I don't know what I would have done without you. Thank you so much. <3
This is my New Year's Resolution: do my best each day in work, friendships, relationships, and personal things. That way, I won't live with any more regrets than I have now. And, to let the people that I care about know that I care about them. I thought that I would have a lot longer to do that with my mother, and I have to live with the fact that all of my chances with her are now gone. This new year (and every new year after it) is going to be tough, but I'm finally realizing that I have the strength to carry on. 2010 has taught me a lot about myself, even if they were harsh lessons.
Here's to 2011. :D
A lot of stuff has happened since October 12th. I finished up all of the classes I need to get my AA, though I'm technically graduating in the spring. My birthday came and went in November, which was fun. Thanksgiving was also a nice time. December 3rd happened, along with December 8th. hyper_amychao's birthday, the Solstice Party, and Christmas also happened.
My birthday was a lot of fun this year. A bunch of my friends ended up going to the Denver Museum of Nature and Science, then Pappadeaux for dinner. There ended up being about 12 of us altogether, so it was quite a big group. My sister's birthday was also on October 30th, so I ended up going to the party she had. I met her boyfriend for the first time, and a bunch of her friends from school.
hyper_amychao had her birthday on December 5th, which ended up being a lot more relaxed than mine. A few of us went to Old C's and had dinner, just chilling for the majority of it.
Christmas was nice this year. My dad, sister and I ended up going out to Brush Christmas Day, which was the first time I'd been back there since my grandmother passed away four or five years ago. The Solstice party was also a good time; we ended up watching really bad movies and having large amounts of Puppy Chow. <3
Nothing really notable in my acquisitions this year, but I did get a lot of books and movies. I also got some snow boots from my dad, which will come in handy when we do actually get snow here.
Okay, must get ready for work.
The Friends of the Library had their annual book sale this weekend. Today, from 4 to 6 p.m., they had the $5.00 bag sale. I dragged [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] there, since we were already hanging out. xD I got a ton of books, including a cookbook and some ~romance~ novels. Overall, I was quite pleased.
[Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com] and I were there for more than one reason, however. We've decided to... read Twilight. I, for one, am curious to see what the big deal is about, and if they do actually suck as much as people say they do.
The book sale didn't have any copies, so we got two copies of the first book from the library. We've already made it through the first two chapters, and right now I want to punch Bella in the face. She reminds me so much of a Mary Sue: all of the boys love her, everyone wants to talk to her and be her friend, and she's way too stuck up about how smart she is. She is also too whiny, and the dialogue in these first two chapters is so bad. Hopefully we can make it through the first book. xD
Work has been busy; school has been "meh." I need to start thinking about applying to CSU, even though there are so many things I need to do at Front Range first.
On the dating front- I've gone out on at least four (I think) coffee dates since I started doing the LoveBug thing. That's four more dates than I've had in the past year and a half. Too bad I haven't liked any of the guys I've been matched with. No chemistry whatsoever, and some of them have been jerks. Hopefully someone will come along that I'll actually feel something with.
On the plus side, I've lost a little over 18 pounds since the beginning of September.
I should be going to bed, but I had to answer this one question before I try. If I had a choice of a fictional world to visit, I'd definitely have to choose the world of Final Fantasy VIII. I would love to see places like Balamb and Esthar, along with characters like Laguna and Squall.
So, yes. After much internal deliberation, that would be my final choice.
Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test...
NBPC - The Daydreamer
Nature, Background, Big Picture, and Color
You perceive the world with particular attention to nature. You focus on the hidden treasures of life (the background) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you. Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude. You like to ponder ideas and imagine the many possibilities of your life without worrying about the details or specifics. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.
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I had my yearly review yesterday, which went awesome. These things seem to get easier and easier every year. I also got a raise, which makes me incredibly happy. More money is always a good thing.
Now, to the thing I need advice about!
So, I have a first date coming up. More than likely, at least two of them. Since I haven't really gotten out and dated in about two years, I am definitely nervous about the whole thing. I want things to go over well, and that includes picking the right outfit.
I was hoping that I could poll the people on my f-list and ask everyone what they think is appropriate "first date" attire. I'm meeting this first guy for coffee, so I'm assuming that it'll be nothing more than casual. I was thinking jeans and a shirt with a cardigan or something over it, but I don't know. Is that too fancy? I would really appreciate any advice! <3